Matt, you will forever hold a very big place in my heart. I don’t think I’ve ever cried or broken down as hard as I did in my entire life when I heard the gut wrenching news. I will truly never forget your adorable smile, and heart warming laugh. You always managed to make me blush, and brighten my mood with your quirks and little jokes whenever I was down. You even agreed to be my back up prom date. It is so incredibly devastating to us all that we will never get to see you again; that is until our next lives together. My condolences to your family, and your closest friends. I miss you. I love you. 

I hate my lack of acceptance letters. I hate my classes. I hate my current grades. I hate the kids in my school. I hate the pressure of planning Prom, [and every other senior activity]. I hate the people who think they know me. I hate the people who judge me. I hate the people who undermine me. I hate that my brother barely visits. I hate that my parents are under constant coercion. I hate that they’re always upset. I hate that my skin breaks out ferociously under stress. I hate that I look to food for comfort. I hate that I will never love my appearance. I hate that I will never be at peace. But most of all, I hate that I can be so trivial and have such a disdain for my existence when there are people who are actually suffering from lethal diseases, or are under the control of a brutal and inhumane government. fuck me

Okay, I am done now. That was my rant for the season.